One thought of you is all it takes for me to leave the rest of the world behind

2010-11-05T22:48:00.003+08:00

i can't believe you are the one,

to build me up and tear me down..

like an old abandon house.

2010-10-28T22:43:00.002+08:00

i feel that i needed to post this up. haha. just now as i was alone in the still water, and quietness filled the entire place..gazing up at the stars, this sudden thought came to my mind...

what's gna happen in the next 10, 20 years of my life. would i still be able spend some quiet time alone, w the ones i loved or even doing the things i wanted, or will my life just be packed w working stuffs. i thought to myself, what's gna happen when i'm long gone. haha it's just a random thought.

but as i was thinking, someone just came across my mind...hmmm~

2010-10-17T14:59:00.003+08:00

there's so much to say, but i do not know whr to start. many thoughts kept running through my head. i'm in my own valley now, trying to climb out of it. in areas like spiritually and others. i'm trying v hard to do what i can to get out of this dark place, but the road gets tougher and tougher. whenever i sees the end of my valley, i just feels that something is pulling me back down again!! (ARGH)

just doesn't feels so good right now, at times i felt like giving up..! but this verse had got me back on my feet whenever i falls.

and with this, i know i'll have a renewed strength everyday!

MATTHEW28:20

and surely I am with you always, to the very end of this age.

2010-09-18T23:16:00.004+08:00

spent my 20th birthday in church! no more teenager, adult liao! hais. HAHAAA. anyw! Service w Ps Joakin Lundqvist was v v v powerful man! hahaa. tears actually rolled down while worshipping, guess God is moving in me!(: what rly hit my mind is that, Ps said when we have problems/challenges along our walk in life w God, the best thing is to secure ourself in "WE"(hoGc)! yup. it's all abt how much we can do as an individual and how much we can do as a family! HAhA!

aft svc, went down to kopitiam, da bao my beloved cai fan up to church and eat! hahaa. i was loved with a v delicious chocolate cake and a biggest birthday card i ever had in my entire life aft dinner. awesome desserts haha. just hanged out w the ceg...playing w kenneth a.k.a LKS and company. hahah just had lotsa lotsa fun! yup!

2010-09-18T03:21:00.004+08:00

Dear Father, i thanked you for what You have done in my life even though i've sinned umpteen times against You...but Lord, from this moment onwards, im leaving the old me behind and living the new me by the mercy of Your grace. bcos i know You will always be my Father, Provider and Deliverer! So Father, i just leave every burdens and ugliness onto You and commit my new life into Your hands! In Jesus name i pray, Amen!

today's my 20th birthday! haha guess i'm gna spend it in church!(: bcos i felt there's a need to. coming bck to my first love! heez. guess i'm turning in now! everything will be brand new when i wake up later! just wait and see! old me is gone, and a btr me is coming! sin-LESS and oso giving my best years of my life to God!

2010-09-17T16:42:00.002+08:00

here's the pics taken during Eunice's 16th birthday @ RP! HAHAHA.

2010-09-12T10:07:00.002+08:00

tonight i'll be gg bck to camp again. gna miss my bed, my room, EVERYTHING man! the weahhaha. the thought of gg bck camp just feels so SIAN...but i guess it's ok since i will have something to look forward to this coming weekend!!!(: that alone will just pull me thr the time spent inside. heez. it's alrdy been a month since i got enlisted, and im still trying to adapt to the NS life. haha. sure took me long enough. 2 more months to go!!!

best of luck to my friend, yk. hahaa who is getting enlisted tmrw! cool mohawk u got there man, but mine look much cooler! HAHA!=/

blogging off~

2010-09-11T22:46:00.003+08:00

One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind

2010-09-11T01:11:00.002+08:00

needing You now!

2010-09-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

spent the whole day serving in church! felt so purposeful. hahaa. anyw, Ps Lia's sermon rly impacted me alot. She said that God will not put us into a battle unequipped! in that case, that means God has alrdy equipped me for the battle im gg thr right now, which is NS. and that i'm rdy for it! hahaa. that rly rly rly rly rly helps me alot during this period man. thanks Ps! heez.

Aft svc, met Dom for dinner at Suki Sushi! first time trying it..the food is delicious but more importantly, ate it w an awesome friend!(: talked about our ns life, about how i cannot tahan ns and many other stuffs. hahahaha. just realised he had alrdy overcomed his fear abt cockroaches BUT not tofu! as for me, it's just the opposite! HAHA he told him how he got scammed into eating tofu last time and he had nvr touched tofu since then. hahaha so funny man!(: dinner was his treat though initially it was mine! oh well, next time then.

enjoying my bread w nutella spread now~

2010-09-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

there may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning!

I've alrdy been in NS for 1month. though trg might be tough at times, but managed to pull it through! prayed and read the bible everyday and felt i've grown closer to God. not only that, now that i've found people to filled up this emptiness in my heart, i believed things do get btr and btr during my stay in time to come, rly happy about that!(:

*thanks Crystal too, for keeping me company for the past few wks. hehez*

but whatever it is, it will be my 20th birthday in just 2weeks time! ohman, getting excited about it alrdy! HAHA. yup! i'm rly sleepy now, gna turn in for the night! blogging off~

2010-08-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY
PASTOR HOW!
you've changed my life completely.
million thanks!
loves.

2010-08-28T00:21:00.000+08:00

spent quality time w my family at IKEA just now! felt so great just to be around them man, esp aft spending the whole tiring week in camp! (: had baked chicken leg or something for dinner, rly delicious! and ordered many other food as well! haha.

went for a swim over at my uncle's condominium. but it was a short one, the water was freezing cold man! went to sauna instead and it's too hot. ohman, hope i dont get sick later one haha. gna stay up the whole night till tmr. having bfast w my mum before she goes off for work! it's gna be great!!! (:

2010-08-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

what Pastor said was really true! we only got one life and it's not gna last like forever, but the years given to God is gna last forever and ever! we should give God the best years of our life and not the leftovers!(: i feel that we should stand our ground while doing so cos like what Pst How said, people around us will tend to criticize on us, pulling us down and stuff like this.

p.s. stupid people not letting us occupy singpost for our church svc!-.- hope they have fleas all over the ones who oppose us! muhahahaa. i believe we'll fight for our home when there's a need to. hahaa

not to forget the gifts showered by my cgmates! haha. it was this tuesday when i told Gladys i wna get the audion sermon cd on Rest and a small bible to read during my stay in NS. little did i know, str aft service, they went to buy for me!!! you tell me lah! WHR CAN U EVER FIND SUCH A GREAT BUNCH OF PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. love them ttm! DL13 ROCKS~~~\m/

anyw, had dinner w my mum, cousin and hongyie.. it was really delicious man! had baked fish w cheese toppings...hahaa. not forgetting the brownies for dessert! it's rly rly rly sweet!

LASTLY...

Mind is set! nothing's gna stop me from giving the best years of my life to God!(:

2010-08-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

i will be still, know You are God!(:

2010-08-14T22:07:00.001+08:00

felt so drained aft everything thats happening in camp. came for service! recharged myself! rly glad i made it for service today. haha. Pst How preached a sermon that rly helps me in my life. esp during this point of time whr im gg thr my NS.

not only i wna thank Pst, i oso appreciate all the encouragements by my ceg! haha. just wna emphasize on what E says, "NS is just a phase in life everyone had to go thr, and God puts me there bcos He knows i can do it, it'll be fine." (: of cos, everyone as well! THANNNNNKKKKK YOOOUUUUU!!!!

ever since i've stepped into this camp, everyday's a struggle. felt like your freedom have been taken away. and just felt rly rly rly sad abt it...but today i felt so different aft worshipping God, there's this part of the song that goes something like this,

i'm not afraid

cause i know,

i have God in me.

and God is bigger than anything...therefore, i'm now ready to go thr NS w God in me! (:

2010-07-13T00:19:00.000+08:00

Just prayed to God about some things that i'm struggling with in life. Though it was just a short prayer, but i felt different aft that. I felt a peace in my heart...and with that, i'll be able to breakthrough in this area! I'm glad to have Him to pour out all my burdens in! (:

Beauty that made this heart adore You

2010-07-06T01:40:00.000+08:00

One night i dreamed i was walking

along the beach with the Lord.

Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.

Sometimes there were two sets of footprints.

Other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered because I noticed that

during the low periods of my life,

I could seee only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,"You promised me,

Lord, that if I followed You.

You would walk with me always.

But I noticed that during the most trying periods

Of my life there have only been

One set of prints in the sand.

Why, When i need You the most,

You have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,

"The times when you have seen only one set of footprints,

Is when i carried you."

2010-07-06T01:15:00.000+08:00

Had so much fun w Andy, Kenneth and Colin today. Played basketball for like the longest hours in my life. hahaha stay under the HOT sun for like 2hours. (Chao ta liao la!!!) haha. aft bball, Colin went home. We stinks aft all the sweat! paid 50cents to enter amk swimming complex to bathe!=/ we spent the next 2 hours playing lan tgt! just simply enjoyed it. haha

Anyw, talking about last wk service...just got so impacted by what D.R AR Bernard had preached!!! we needed to have a set of core values and purposes to live life.

Society may changed but our principles doesn't!
what really impacted me the most is that, growth is a process. Each level takes us to a new relationships and exposure us to a new level of knowledge. And as we look bck at our past levels, we begin to see how much we have grown as a person and we see that there are moments whr we could make a btr choice!(:

i guess i'd found my core values in life.

FAITHto follow God.

FAMILYto count on.

LOVE for others.

COMMUNITYto be remembered for.

i feel that i've grown to another level in life. just so happy. running this race tgt w DL13! can't wait to see myself breakthrough!!! haha(:

2010-06-27T03:05:00.000+08:00

Aft all these years, i've been finding answers to how God's voice would sounds like and what must i do to hear it..but i've finally found it.

Just finished listening an audio sermon by Pst How, AUDIO FREQUENCY.

it's just what i needed. it has all the answers to my questions. Pst How also talked about forgiving people and that forgiveness is not a feeling, it's a decision!

i just feel it's also my insecurity that's hindering me from hearing God. just gotta have a little more faith in myself and move over to a frequency of God. meaning we should just get rid of those negative and get into the positive. God will begin to speak to us.

I'M JUST SO GLAD I'VE FOUND MY ANSWER!(:

LOVE MY GOD AND PASTORS!

2010-06-24T00:21:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICETAY!(: haha had so much fun surprising her and just hanging out w the cg! heh. met eunice and gladys at woodlands mrt, took the wrong bus and decided to take a cab insteady. haha. our mission to surprise eunice goes like this...first, gladys told eunice that we're gna surprise abigale at her school, but later it was eunice whom got surprised w cake and gifts from us. sang b'dae song at the toilet area, weird but fun! haha our operation was a success! heh. aft that, headed down to the canteen..both of them started putting creams on eunice's face and i was somehow dragged in. lols we're a bunch of crazies!=/

tout of play l4d2 at yishun, but then we decided to head over to eunice's hse to play monopoly and guitar hero. totally sux at those games! haha. just when we're about to go hme, jamie called and wna give eunice another surprise. lols. so we convinced her to walk us to j8! hehe (: SURPRISE! jamie and huimin was there w another cake. hahaa. today's rly a day full of surprises for the birthday girl, never seems to end. haha. DL13 never failed in surprise missons!(: love all of them.

photos will be uploaded soon! (:

2010-06-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

ytd sermon was preached by Pst Ming. felt the presence of God so strongly that tears rolled down my eyes. It was on Father's Day. how we must love and treasure the person while he/she is still around w us. though i've lost my earthly father, but i won't be jealous of other people as i still got my heavenly father w me all the times! haha (: and in life, we just gotta be there for people, esp those whom have failed...cos our presence is their biggest comfort. Definitely gna do that! heh (:

I HAVE SUCH AN AMAZING CG MATES AND LEADERS!

i was loved w waffles by my cgmates!(eunice, gladys, abigale) haha. waffles coming from own cg tasted rly rly delicious, even btr than waffles factory! hahaha. anyway, thanks love ya all!~ :D

2010-06-14T01:22:00.000+08:00

PUT GOD FIRST IN EVERYTHING

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2010-06-07T01:12:00.000+08:00

Pastor Lia preached a super powerful sermon, awesome ttVm!(:

now that i know how to confront the spirit of intimidation, i'll never be the same!!

got prayed for as well. happy and ready to conquer every obstacles that's in my way! haha

gotta focus on the promises of God, rather than the problems we faced!

i have found myself a hiding place...

2010-05-18T00:18:00.000+08:00

even if it's only as an obstacle for you to overcome...

i'm always going to be there for you.

even if you do hate me.

2010-05-15T23:44:00.000+08:00

Aft hearing Pst Lia preached the mind-blowing, powerful sermon...it brings me to this.

along my walk as a christian i've seen lotsa people so on fire for God, and as time passes...people start to lose the fire in their heart.

i started asking myself, will i still stay faithful to God aft 10years, 20years?

now that i've alrdy found a purpose in life...i can assuredly say that i will, and not only that..i'll keep giving Him the best years of my life!

friends can choose to enjoy life and have all the fun yeh...but i'm gna put God as priority over every areas in my life. and i know things are sure to work out for me! (:

tell the world how You rescued me

2010-05-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

under your wings, i take refuge.

2010-05-04T01:55:00.000+08:00

life's changing for the btr. why? idk, somehow i just felt that i'm rdy to conquer all the challenges that's waiting for me. haha. been spending some quality time w God every night before i sleep, having my own specific prayer to pray for.

if im gna have all the fame, wealth and glory without God,

i'd rather not have it at all.

As i was praying, this line just came to my mind. i might have heard it somewhr. but still, its good. hahaa. gna put that into my life! putting God first in all that we do, everything definitely will work out well..

2010-04-20T02:04:00.001+08:00

haha my internet is now working extremely well. cos i've just changed the password, and my room tenant can't use it anymore! so i have the internet all to myself...wahahaha! =p heez.

and oso, i kinda brokethrough. i've started talking to new friend coming to church. hahaaa. was rly happy..

anyw, started work at fish and co today. was awesome and fun. the people there is rly friendly. i mean realllyyyyyyyyyyy. time passes v fast there. haha. enjoyed this job! =)

2010-04-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

gna pray Pray PRAY..

trusting Him in w all that i am.

Repenting and Remembering!~

2010-04-01T08:38:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i've stepped into this space. exams are over now. results aren't really good but nevertheless, enjoying my break ttm right now. haha howteng created a twitter account for me cos she said everyone's using it besides me. lol. hmm guess i'll stop here. looking forward to easter svc! :D:D

2010-03-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

A thousand times i fail,

still Your mercy remain.

giving You the best years of my life.

2010-03-14T19:54:00.000+08:00

First livefeed duty for ZoneF service this weekend was really fun and..a little lost and nervous at first though. but faith arises in me and it all went well. (: can't wait for my next livefeed duty!

I'm so glad i attended both service this weekend! hehs. Pst How preached his Part3 sermons of the 7 Churches in Revelation. Although we are in this pursuit to be modern...But we also need to be strong enough to withstand the world! That is when our CoreEssence play its part!(:

We don't need the external. We need the internal instead!

Be the light in the darkness.

Not only that, Pst Magaret Court came to our church and preached!(: So impacted by it...I bet everyone who attended today's service was impacted by her as well. Bought her book w her autograph, so cool right? Maybe i can sell it at x2 the price i got it for. HAHA jk! =)

Take no thoughts on tomorrow as tomorrow will have it's own.

2010-03-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

Felt so impacted by Pst How's sermon last weekend. In life, we had lots of love, including God. but He's not contented to be one of our love, He wants to be our first love! and our first love deserved our first works, and we never neglect our first works!(:

Decided to do my quiet time more frequently now. hadn't been doing it for some time. i know that's bad. haha. anyway, this verse just caught my eyes as i was doing my qt just now.

Be faithful till death, and i will give you the crown of life. (Rev2:10)

Wow! isn't it amazing?.

How God will stay faithful to us as long as we stay faithful to Him!

giving Him the best years of my life. yeah!

Just love my big God and awesome Pastor and wonderful cg mates!(:

2010-03-08T02:48:00.001+08:00

God: Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No.. Who is this?

God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.

God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results.Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?

God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit.That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?

God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..

God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

God: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you road ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God: When they suffer they ask, 'why me?' When they prosper, they never ask 'Why me'. Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.

God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not merely a process of discovery but a process of co-creation. You are my co-creator.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat.

God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve.Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. 'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away!

2010-03-08T02:44:00.000+08:00

Success comes in two dimensions,

the visible and the invisible.

The visible is 10% of your success, and the invisible is the other 90%.

2010-03-08T02:37:00.000+08:00

An atheist professor of philosophy was speaking to his class on the problem Science has with God, the Almighty. He asked one of his new Christian student to stand and...

Professor: You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.

Professor: Is God good?
Student: Sure.

Professor: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.

Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent )

Professor: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student: Yes.

Professor: Is Satan good?
Student: No.

Professor: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From... God...

Professor: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.

Professor: So who created evil?

(Student did not answer)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them?

(Student had no answer)

Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son... Have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No , sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.'

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.

Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.

Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Professor: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Professor: Yes.

Student: No, sir. There isn't.

(The lecture theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something . You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light... But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it is, were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a Good God and a Bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going )

Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class was in uproar )

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?

(The class broke out into laughter )

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)

Professor: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it, sir... Exactly! The link between Man and God is faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.

NB:That student was Albert Einstein.